The Rager, the Menace.

I haven't updated this blog in so long. Thanksgiving was my last post? Really? I've been slacking, for real. Let's see...where to start? A few things have happened between Thanksgiving and now, most notably the Trooper deciding to take a dump on my chest...again. Totally my fault too. Apparently cars need oil to run? Who knew? Luckily, mom and pops were clutch with the save, lending me one of their cars until I got mine fixed. So for the past couple of months I've been getting around in my dad's 95' Chevy Astro Van. She may not be the prettiest thing on the road, but damn it, Bertha's (totally named it Bertha) getting me from A to B right now and that's good enough for me. I'm super thankful that my parent's were nice enough to lend me some wheels to get around with, you know? I could be taking the bus everyday, so I guess there's always some sort of positivity in the shittiest of situations. I'd been saving some money to get the Trooper fixed, but I figured it'd be better in the long run to just use the money I could save up towards a down payment on a newer vehicle. I've been saving since the Trooper broke down two months ago, so next week my parents and I are heading out to Henderson and gettin' this guy a car! That's definitely a whole bunch of stress lifted off of my shoulders. Ever since my car broke down, I'd been stressing out about what my next move needed to be. The fact that I'm going next week to purchase a car is the first bit of good news I've received in a while. Love Bertha, but I'm not pullin' any numbers in a faded blue rapist-van, ya dig? Other than my car situation, things have more or less been the same. I quit my job at Outback in January. The employees and management there were super chill, but unfortunately the twenty mile round trip drive to and from work was costing more than what I was making, so I found myself another job and quit the O.B! I've been doing very well financially since I switched jobs, so no regrets there. I did have to part ways with some people, though. It wasn't an easy thing for me to do, but I feel that things are better off that way. I'd been feeling kinda bummed out about it for a while, and maybe second guessing my decision until I made a trip to Cedar City a couple weeks back to visit one of my best friends. While there, I was able to really get into my head. I mean REALLY get deep down in there, man. I made realizations about so many aspects of my life and how I could tweak minor things here and there to better myself and my life as a whole. I also realized that the closest of friends can become nothing more than someone you brush shoulders with on a busy sidewalk. One of my many epiphanies was that I cut ties with the people that I did because that's what's best for me. My zealously blind selflessness gets misconstrued to the point where I get taken advantage of, and you know what, maybe that's on me. Maybe not. Regardless, I'm tired of feeling used, and I'm sure as hell tired of feeling second best, so I've taken the necessary steps to ensure I don't feel that way anymore. See? Minor tweak to improve my quality of life! Now, if only I could figure out my love life...